Gansu Production Corps was founded in 1964, it has been expressly provided at construction time: educated youth first came to the farm three years are not allowed to fall in love, are not allowed to get married, are not allowed to visit relatives. This to the 70’s, many older educated youth reached chronic proportions, still bachelor. My good friend Wang Bin is one of them.
Wang Bin is scheduled for the West Zone from the orphanage orphans, has 25-year-old girlfriend does not.
He studied at the orphanage in 2056 Dingxi book, but it has not risen to three with primary and secondary schools, not just the city to the female educated youth and failing him, and that is the orphanage to the girl he is also dismissive. He not only educational level is too low, appearance is not OK – thin, small, girls were not attractive.
His presence and the Ministry of drive carriage, often carry the goods to our stores, I know him for several years, knowing he had a painful childhood. 1958, cited Tao River projects, the reason he cited was the production team sent to the site of labor Weiyuan Tao works. In June of that year the whole family into the production team of public canteens to eat at home not called smoke, captain called the food handed to the public canteens. Then he was in his early thirties, the rural activists, on the Bianjiao pay to the canteen food, they have a food is not left over to pay out. At that time my grandfather said the family was able to save a few catties it, prepare for famine. Then he said, are the people’s communes, and do not eat money, it is necessary to lead a life of communism: the upstairs, downstairs, light phone … … can do downtown drought disaster? True if the drought, and hail hit the country’s trains Europe gave the roar, and food on the pull comes, are you still afraid to do without food? Food handed canteen, he was big on the last quoted Tao went to the site. But no one would have thought that this year drought did not flood, people are hungry: the labor of the Tao He went, and steel went to the food drip to the ground, and potato are also rotten in the ground, and the country still income tax paid in grain requisition received food, cafeteria food to eat not just cook some wheat bran stirred up telling everyone to drink, the country’s buy-back grain not see shadow. This kind of life to improvise the summer of 1959, the elderly and frail grandmother would die of starvation.
Then he ran the site from Tao He came back. The reason is the food is also insufficient supply of migrant workers, and workers were also enough to eat, and pale and thin do not move to life. Since then he was running back, the captain does not give him great soup to drink, he had to absorb a great drink on the family’s share of murky soup. This is undoubtedly worse for the hungry family. Then he came back after the team was also continuously denounced the results of a large visceral Jiaoren wounded, and from terminal one, the lunar calendar in September of the third day of the cafeteria to stop gang died.
Then at home on the left grandfather, mother, two sisters, and Wang Bin, himself.
He died one month after the big, big sister of the dead. At that time the whole family to eat the bark, eating Valley clothing, Tian Duzi. Inflation in the stomach to eat these things very, excretion is not down, your mother chopstick out one person at a dig. One afternoon, mother is giving him dig yet, and big sister said her belly bulge is also the Buxing Liao. Niangshui own geese go, big sister went to the latrine. Darkness to sleep, when Niangshui, Qin Qin which half was gone? After asking many found in the latrine: the big sister in a pile of ash on the tummy, has Yingying’s a. Mother holding a big sister to cry with a group holding the write-coated grass pea into the ravine where the. At that time my grandfather had gone out to beg. Mother, after the big sister is like to write a Mo Zhang, except for digging grass beard, picked up in the soft child to punish him and the little sister to eat, stay seated on the dementia are often said to himself: it must not live, and we supposed to do … … the result so far was hurt.
Big sister, half a month after the service of one morning, he woke up and found mother disappeared, and five years old little sister was lost.
He thought early mother infant sister dug on the grass with a beard, or dig fern Leverage to go, or go looking for food, sitting on the kang, and so your mother to come back.
Sun West Ramp, and mother not to come back. He waited too anxious, and stomach are also unbearable hunger, and to wear shoes to the door to see. From the entrance to the tunnel was 2 see, there is no mother’s shadow. He You Wang village walk.
In the village, he met had to go pick up in the soft segment of children with home aunt. Aunt asked him: earth baby, you Zuosa go? When he was fine mound always play, are engaged in cloddish, and one of his nicknames in front of the word of a soil. He replied, Duan mother, you see my mother do? Duan home aunt said that Turkey and baby, do not wait, your mother will never come back, he was a bit puzzled and said, I went to the mother what? Loud noise will never come back? Duan home aunt that my baby, your mother did not give you say that? Her to other people’s house, and then not come back again! You quickly go home, do not wait. And he does not understand, and that I Zuosa mother to the others go home? Her loud noise would not come home? Duan home aunt said, melons Wazi, your mother gives the daughter to the family belongings, and do not come back. You quickly go home and find your grandfather go.
Heard that mother gives the daughter to the family silver, he suddenly Zheng Zhu, and then crying again. This is not the monsters it?
Bin told me when describing the past I had asked him: After you enter the orphanage it? He said no, then no orphanage, I am going to Grandpa had. Our family Jiusheng grandfather had an adult. Grandpa was also unreliable, Grandpa was not home at that time already, and he himself went to the beggar. The day my mother to go, Grandpa on the outside, begging for food, no home. My grandfather did not walk a longer distance, on the Tongwei County town begging for food, and lead back to eight-day trip to 10 days. Back is also Zhiwangbushang whole tongwei are starving it, he can not go hungry himself Hunzhao easy. Sometimes, however, is also back to give me a two potatoes to eat, Zhu Yiye the next day and went. I ask, how do you live? Answer, the village people look at me evil creature, boss to a soup, the West family to a soup, and later fighting in the wheat field of wheat straw, pick up collections of food to eat. My mother to go the day I came home crying one game went to pick up food collections of wheat went to the floor. I asked him: Have you seen your mother do after? Answer, seen, my mother’s remarriage in our village, and sometimes on the road to meet my mother. I feel surprised and asked him: Do you often encounter in the street Yeah, that when they meet how to do it, you Jiaoniang do? He answered call. I asked your mother what attitude? He answered, I saw my mother I asked on stopped and asked if I do eat and told me to that house. I did not. My mother cry. My younger sister also called me, I did not go. Oh, sister, small, melons a mile. I asked, how can you not? He replied, I do not ask to go. I also keep telling me that every time a beggar came back, you did great, and your mother Jiugen the people, do not you, is a heartless, Xinhen no love without justice. You met with no more Jiaoniang and not recognizing her. I think my grandfather is right. I said, you still Jiaoniang it! He said, could not resist Well! My mother saw me and called baby, I hide, she would chase, and caught up and asked, Grandpa did not come back, my grandfather did not discuss the rice has to give me to eat do not give. I would say that my grandfather did not discuss the rice, she started to cry, tell them I went to that house. I did not, she started to cry. Sometimes yi see me cry, cry did not say a word. I am also sad at times crying, but I cry. I said, you should go Well, you go to your mother give you something to eat. He said, I do not. I hate her, she was hard-hearted not to me, that I went to her house to go? I have ambition.
I also asked Bin: your mother to your house before? He replied, not to come. Our rural customs, with the others of the women can not go to the original-laws, to a man scolded miles.
I remember also asked some questions: Do you mother remarried early in December, to you into the orphanage, as well as two months, the past two months time, how do you survived? As far as I know, this Government has not been issued a two-month pound of relief food.
Shake straw, pick up collections of food. Village, a dozen baby shake straw. We ground wheat straw production team, peas, grass, millet Millet haystack search through the pile. Sometimes day to Douchu 122, and sometimes a food is also not come out shaking. One haystack collapsed, crushing the two dolls, and no one came, no one to rescue about. Later, a pro-di-tert-room to find me, and said, Lo commune has a table of children orphanages, to close doll, and I lead you to see if others do not charge you received. I followed the uncle went, they said I am a big uncle now starve to death, mother remarried, and Lord of the … … people to go out begging me to accept it had.
Bin Luo commune in the table orphanage for children living for two years. Last two years, the national relief food to eat in a day, half a catty. The second year to a local orphanage, the orphanage to the orphans, made a textbook, the teacher started teaching, but he starving in a hurry, sit still in class, often went to the streets looking for food. Sometimes brigade mingled grain management office to all relief food distribution and production teams where Touzhao transferred from the field to eat the government’s Candied Sweet Potato, sometimes picking up in the street to eat watermelon rind discarded by others, he saw someone throw a Peach , picked up stuffed into his mouth that most of people without food and clean fruit. Only when the Chinese New Year, uncle to the orphanage to take him back to the village to live two or three days the Royal fork, and Grandpa see a face, and then back to the orphanage. Two years later, Lo commune table into Tongwei County orphanage orphanages orphans, when the supply of food more, but still enough to eat. The tongwei orphanage is to be a few years, but he even failed the third grade is going up, because she was hungry, did not mind learning. Until January 1967 was built 11 agricultural recruitment division 11 regiment only eat the stomach.
In the Tongwei County orphanage, once he returned home, but also to pick his uncle went to the Spring Festival. Lo commune back from the table at home twice, two were not seen dodging the mother. He would wish to see her from the heart. Two home, Grandpa always bear a grudge against him that your mother a bad conscience, and then he died only one month, leaving put the doll away, almost to engage in a broken royal incense. He went to what is thought incense incense does not matter, he thought that regardless of his mother, and he did not even grain, clothing, leather have to eat buckwheat, and almost starved to death. He Qujian Mak stars son, called the collapse of the straw was almost crushed to death. Fall sleep at night, kang was cold, frozen, he can not sleep, stay in less than dawn. Subject of that crime! So this time from the tongwei orphanage home, he was still unwilling to see the mother. Dao Shi’s mother want to see him. Who started the day, he gave the village a few from 1960 survived the great famine, and give him a soup noodles old clothes a Valley New Year’s – he was 14 years old, know that Thanksgiving has. When he was home at the entrance to the village segment New Year’s aunt when the family segment aunt asked him: You do not look at your mother do? He decisively decided not to go. Duan home aunt said that Turkey and baby, your mother, but have not forgotten you know. No matter which one you are talking about drip tears. His aunt said the family section, and she also knew that shed tears? Know that shed tears, and that the time to write me a! Duan said the soil at home aunt baby, my baby, as well as his son with the vengeful mother’s do? Do you know when your mother wants you then go away to do? Is your grandfather and uncle would not call your mother away, and said that she take you away, Wang had no descendants.
Section Home aunt said, and would kill her little girl said, go, put your baby brother’s mother earth called, say that I called to’s House come. Soil baby, your mother mother and son in my home, see above on the one hand, do not call your grandfather know that. Know that the old man still call me nosy it.
Wang Bin said, do not call, I would want to see her. But the aunt of the little girl home segment has been the Yi Liuyan to run away. Then he stood up and said, ma’am, I have to go. He does wish to see his mother. He knew that Thanksgiving, but his love and hate and more clearly: he hates mother, mother throwing him to the house to others, not only did not love him, but also an insult to his major. He was too ugly! However, Duan Jia aunt pulled his sleeve said that Turkey and baby, you hear a word ma’am: your mother come to my house last night, and she will know you go home the day before the New Year came, and she asked me to give you a pass so, she would like to invite you miles, you could come to her over a meal to go. He energetically broke away Duan family aunt’s hand and says loudly, do not pull, ma’am you do not pull, I would not see her, I did not eat the meal her. I did not eat no matter when she was me, I now have food to eat, and she told me to eat this meal to go! I am missing this meal? You tell her that I did not know her mother, she already did this son! Deng Deng, he opened the door to get out of the yard, but also tread Deng Deng went to their homes.
However, he came home aunt segment of the walls, abductions up the street from his home, his mother has appeared on his only way home. His mother hurried toward welcoming him over, he has had inescapable. He stopped a little hesitant, then walked toward the side of a roadway. He is gone a length, suddenly discovered that this is a dead end. Emergency situations, he knocked a person’s courtyard, he wanted to enter into other people’s yard to go. However, the door has not opened, woman with bound feet, when running the kind of unique footsteps pound, has a ring to his side. Hears that he has grown accustomed to the friendly voice with crying, said:
Baby, my baby, you so hate me? See do not even want to see me?
He did not answer. His back facing the mother and continue to knock on the door. Mother went on to say:
My baby, I know you come back. You have not been home for two years, I think this year you must come back trip. I’ll wait for ah, so ah, your so come. Go home and go, I sides roll Well, go home to eat a meal.
He still did not speak, facing the courtyard, head down. He has heard the people to open the door in the courtyard again the footsteps of the.
Run!, To the meal off to home. Mother said.
But by this time that courtyard crash soon as opened. His door was a familiar one out of five of the uncle. Uncle saw him talk about a cry, yo, baby come to earth … … while the word has not yet finished his uncle, he went into the hospital, a closed door from the inside. He Gezhe Men and says loudly: Who wants your meal!
The door came the sound of his weeping mother Wuwuyanyan.
… … Since that met your mother, the Bin has not been back home in a decade. He told me that he did not want his home in 1:00 – Tongwei County List Luo Wang fork village commune.
However, in 1974 the East idle season, Wang Bin leave a trip back home. Before leaving, he came to buy something shops. He dumped the body across the counter craned, mouth front of my ear whispered: Can you give me the material will pull two sets of clothes! I said him, what you buy so many? Do you know that this material will also Caifen a company for one year on the 34-meter! He replied to the wife’s father and the wife’s mother to buy! I am scared of this: trying to find a wife? He said not solve the problem for the Well! My uncle asked people in his hometown, Grand Bay, said Niu down the one girl, the Spring Festival to go back to each other smoothly, then come back after New Year on the collar. I am happy for him, he braved the risk of store director criticism to him pulled 5.5 meters.
After New Year take him back one of the dregs of the earth girl, but extremely beautiful body and face, that the girl was 18 years old, just enough to receive a marriage certificate of age. Back to the farm he came to see me shop, but also dig the one of sugar to me. I also expressed his congratulations and said a few flowers inserted in cow dung on the joke, then asked him: this time to go home to see you mother did not marry a wife?
He replied:
Collar home where the wife, I told my grandfather said, I went to look at your mother. Grandpa did not agree, saying that your mother starved to death during the first person to write you, and with the people gone, mother mother’s love has long been broken. You see her Zuoshen? I told Ye Yue, Lord, I was raised under the mother, not pop out of a rock crevices, I married a wife and mother I have not seen reasonable to unreasonable. Lord is not subdued. A day I went to my mother’s house, and holding that a material will. I bought two sets of clothes temporary home of the material will, then do not tell you, a set of my mother’s. Not seen my mother ten years, I think a lot, your mother a thousand mistakes, one thing is true, and she raised me under, she is my mother. The back I would like to recognize my mother. Into my mother’s house, I cried mother, I said I see you coming. My mother was Gala Li pigs, he saw me, heard me shouting at her slam, hands, carrying his pigs BATH dropped to the ground. Then wow gave the cry, and his hands blinded the face, burst into tears. Then they squat, and cried stand up and alerted her family go there too doll epigenetic; dolls were all out, the man came out, stand to see me; big man to pull my mother, saying that your mother not to cry啦. My mother was ed hardy shoes crying, crying, said this is your baby brother, you do not know? Called Brother! My mother remarried and later the two men and a baby girl baby, three baby call me brother, and then put up my mother by the arm, into the house. In the house, I quit mother was wiping tears, speechless. The man said, your mother know you come back, but also know that you are married daughter, and want to see you, afraid you do not recognize. At this time I cried, I cried, mother, when I was small, naive, and hurt you think. I blame the whole thing, do not cry. Mother also burst into tears, cried, baby Yeah, do not blame you, blame the mother, full blame your mother ah, mother regret it your whole life … … I can not any way to mother crying crying, crying uncontrollably, I is also a blubber. Such as mother cry fills me cry too fills me with Niangshuo, tomorrow I’ll go back today, you go over there in the past about, look at the daughter-to go. My mother went to. My mother never ending did not go to the door, directly into the Zaofang. She was embarrassed to see me Lord. Lord, I had not come out to meet her. I was god and an uncle living in one over, two mother happened to Zaofang cooking, Mom told me Niangshui 2, Da Saozai sit down. Today, baby marriage, to the guests mile, I would not attend to you, let’s talk to be finished off. My mother heard that a draft would help hospitality sleeves to start the rice to 2 Ma, pick up this, punish ed hardy jeans it. I said, mother, do not busy, and today you pick up mother and his wife wants to see you miles. Said, and I called the wife, told her that this is my mother. Wife is called the sound of your mother, we should kneel down and bowed my mother pulled, and did not call knock, cried together. Cry for a while, she hand-arm Shangma down a silver ring, set in the daughter’s wrist, said girl, I have not Han to you, this is her baby’s dad bought me, the old, you wear bar. “^
I am sorry for your mother for a while that day, while happy to be at my house one day. Finished the evening meal, the guests did not see the yard, and come back to that house. The next morning I’ll catch the city bus to the tongwei, Tianbuliangjiu got up. Just get up, I heard someone knock on the door. Open the door a look at my mother came in carrying a basket of hand-boiled egg. I said, mother, you get eggs Zuosa? Niangshui, I am baby, this is home, she saved a few eggs, the way you eat. Spoke, she pulled out Yida son money to hardy t shirts and from his arms into the hands of a wife: girl’s mother was poor, dozens of dollars on this money to you, you pull pieces of clothes to wear. Wife to take the money I did not call, eggs, I accept it, we came back.
Wang Bin, a trip back in 1980, had tongwei, and his wife to see wife’s father wife’s mother, also went to see his mother. He said that year into the mother’s home, his mother rolling sub-surface of the amount of bashfulness. He and his wife spent three days in the mother that your mother is very happy. That year his son five years of age, and name is Tada. His mother holding Tada turn over the village, everyone that said, look, this is my Sun Wazi! Name is Tada!
Bin told me that I went to see Mother, I am the man to the very warm with me to drink. Drink when the mother is on the side to coax Sun Wazi to play, I asked the mother: at home Zeyang? I Niangyue ed hardy shirts well, full. Mother asked me: Are you there Zage like? I said yes go again. Niangshui, good like. You see, then scattered family, and now the family up.
Was later returned home twice, once at home mother to her youngest son was married to a wife, once married girl. Marry a girl that, I propose to your mother received a yinma farms come here want to Jiaoniang pension. But that family’s children who are opposed to, say you picked up the mother, and people say that gossip does, that we are not filial mother. Did not take into.